It's the root of life's anxiety. Trust me, I've felt it many
times. In fact, the past few weeks my mind has been plagued with it. You see,
the last three months I've been an intern at a PR firm and it's been great.
I have learned a ton and it was a huge blessing from the Lord that I even
got the position in the first place. However, my internship is almost up and
because I don't graduate until May, I don't know where to go next. I am left
with nothing to do and with no job to help with bills, and let me be the first
to say-- city livin' ain't cheap. I guess you could say, this last month has
been filled with uncertainty at it's finest.
Or so I thought.
One would think that after over a dozen times of
this continuous cycle of worry surrounding different events in my
life, I would have learned my lesson. It starts with a new moment of
uncertainty, then the worry and anxiety set in, then just like always in
the nick of time-- The Lord provides and things work out. Then
finally, you wonder why you wasted so much time worrying. Sound familiar?
I think we are all guilty of falling into the worry cycle
at one time or another.
I heard jobs were hard to find in New York, and paid
internships--even harder. Like I said, it was a blessing to have landed mine. I
started reaching out to anyone and everyone to find information about places
that were hiring as well as searching online for another internship opportunity. I
had heard that without having some kind of an "in" or knowing
someone, internships were almost impossible. However, I thought I would take a
shot in the dark and I applied to a few hoping that my resume would stick out
enough to land an interview. Well, it did.
A few days later I got an email from another PR firm that
wanted to set up an interview! I was really excited too because this was the
firm I was most hoping to hear from. A few days later, I went in for the
interview and after about 2 weeks while in the process of contacting my
references....I became once again plagued with anxiousness about the future. Oh
ye of little faith.
Then.... like always, he provided. The inbox on my computer
popped up with a new message from the hiring manager at the firm-- "Great
news! We've been in touch with all of your references, and at this point would
love to offer you the internship position." ....I literally couldn't stop
smiling for like 3 hours. Uncertainty,
no longer.
It occurred to me at this moment that although we
sometimes are plagued with the anxiousness of uncertainty, it's all really just
a waste of time. It's a waste of time because the Lord always is and always has
been certain. Uncertainty and fear, is really only a fear of the lord not
coming through for us. Ask yourself this, has he really EVER not come
through for you? I'm not saying hard times don't happen, in fact if hard times
didn't happen I fear society would forget the Lord entirely, or simply have no
need for him. When it comes down to it, it's all a choice. We choose to either
trust the Lord, and have faith in him, and he delivers.
Without fail. Every time.
Maybe not in the way we think or want, but it's always
the better way. Always.
.... Or we simply choose to steer away, and take matters into our own
hands and quite frankly, we loose.
Without fail. Every time.
and unfortunately with this choice comes the question the
world is most confused about; Gods existence.
I thinks it's rather funny that people find themselves
asking for God to prove himself. "Prove your existence by showing me this,
or doing this" or " How is there proof that God exists with all the
evil in the world today?"..... When in reality, this life is not for God
to prove himself to us, but for us to prove ourselves to God.
To have faith in him at times when faith seems impossible. And by simply believing
and knowing that
in the end; The Lord Provides. He always does.
..... of this, I am certain.
Yay, congratulations!! I loved this story Sarah! You have such a beautiful testimony of this. Thanks for you strength, you are amazing!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful! I love your Faith and Trust in the Lord. So happy you got another internship. Do you start after the holidays?
ReplyDeleteYes Jyl! January 7th! :)
ReplyDeleteYAY!!!!! What a huge blessing! I am so happy for you Sarah. It doesn't surprise me that your resume and interview landed you the job and stood out from the rest because YOU DA BOMB. I would hire you no questions asked. Lov ya and thanks for your thoughts. I needed them!
ReplyDeleteCongrats that is awesome! so glad you got another internship! Can't wait to see you guys for Christmas!
ReplyDeleteSo wonderful to know that YOU know that God IS the preserver of man. And as Buppy would say, "Off to another adventure!"
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